What is writing?
Can we write one word at a time without ‘thinking’ them?
Just let each word flow out of us like water over the edge of a cliff.
Each word transforming to reality in the moment.
Crossing over the threshold.
Is there any reason we need to filter it, censor it?
What if all the words that came were pure divinity?
There is nothing else, so they must be…
Who are we to think that we know best?
Who are we to think we can control them?
We are not the ones thinking our thoughts, from these tiny little minds.
Yet at the same time, we are.
The bigger, more expansive, infinite us is continually creating.
Words, ideas, thoughts.
And it is up to us to bring them to life through action.
Writing, drawing, creating.
My heart was racing. I was starting to panic. Less than thirty minutes until I had to set off for my Toastmasters meeting and I was only just finishing my speech prep.
I ran through my intro a few more times. What if I get up there and forget it all?! What if I mess up the ending?! The last thing I want is everyone pitying my appalling first effort.
Remember, it’s just a five minute speech that doesn’t have any consequence. You’re just there to learn I told myself. It doesn’t really help to calm my nerves but at least I’m seeing the big picture. I’m realising I might be able to just enjoy what happens. However it goes.
I head over to the meeting, butterflies in tow, but at least feeling a little calmer.
I try to think positive things. I start to remember how good it feels after it’s over and I can sit down. The uncomfortgasm is yet to come… [click to continue…]
I love to hear other people’s stories, so today I’m speaking with the delightful Kate Evans of Another Cuppa about comfort zones and uncomfortgasms. She has also been kind enough to set the very first Uncomfortgasm Challenge!
The idea behind this blog was to push myself out of my comfort zone as well as helping others do the same, so I’ll be asking lots of different people to come up with a challenge that we both have to complete and that will take us out of our comfort zones. It would be amazing to see lots of you take the challenges too.
Keep reading to find out what the first Uncomfortgasm Challenge is!
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I’ve always told myself I wasn’t afraid of anything; including public speaking. I’d spoke to my local council as a child, asking them to build a skate park. I’d done presentations in uni and for work. Sure, I would always be nervous, but I wasn’t afraid… was I?
Just over a year ago, I went along to my first Toastmasters meeting in Leeds as a visitor.
If you don’t know what Toastmasters is, it’s basically an organisation you can join to improve your public speaking skills. They have clubs and meetings all over the world. Go check out their website if you want to find out more.
As a visitor, you’re invited to stand up and do a Table Topic if you wish to. This is where you’re given a topic to speak on and you immediately stand up and speak for 1-2 minutes off the cuff. The thought of it scared the hell out of me. When asked, I immediately reasoned with myself, made my excuses and politely declined.
Maybe next time. I’d done well just turning up. In other words, I pussied out. Big time.
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“Oh shit… What have I done… Maybe I shouldn’t have… What if things don’t work out… What will people think of me… This might be the stupidest thing I’ve ever done…”
These were the doubts going through my mind the night before my final day working for a corporate machine.
Rewind to a week ago. I’d spent a few weeks waiting for my employer to process my voluntary redundancy request. The offer finally came through and I accepted it (yes, they’re paying me to leave). I’m pretty sure it’s the best decision I’ve ever made, but it was far from easy.
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Have you ever slumped down in your chair, felt an overwhelming sense of nothingness and thought to yourself…
What’s the point? What am I doing?
Well that’s exactly what happened to me in early 2014.
Before we go into that though, I’ll tell you a little about how I got there…
The Road To Comfortable
Growing up as a child, I discovered a fascination with computers and technology. I fondly remember programming a Roamer Robot to wander the school halls; creating a radio with my Science Fair Electronic Project Lab; cooking virtual beans on toast using an Acorn BBC Micro; and teaching the rest of my school (including teachers) how to use KidPix on the only colour screen Mac they had. Those were the days.
It was obvious that computers were going to be a huge part of my life, so I set my sights on a job in the amazing world of IT. Not knowing any different at the time, I followed a typical path to get there.
GCSE IT, done. A-level IT, done. Computing degree, done.
Whilst at Leeds University, I worked a year as a Technical Support Analyst for two global IT service companies on the NHS IT Project. The September after finishing Uni in 2008, I went straight on to the graduate scheme to start my career in IT. This was it; I’d done what I set out to do all those years ago. I was living the dream. Or so I thought… [click to continue…]